I appreciate everyone’s patience of my absence through this pandemic situation. I very much value and appreciate all my clients and friends. Each and every one of you have helped me to grow as both a person and an artist. I’m grateful for our encounters, cherish our time and hope you feel the same.
I would like to apologize for falling off the face of the earth over here. I would also like to say a great big SORRY to everyone out there for any unanswered messages or missed stuff. I want everyone to know it wasn’t my intention to ignore anyone!! I bailed from most of the internet.
To be honest, not all internet at first, because for about a month I was glued to the computer, sleep deprived, watching this pandemic unfold in realtime. I thought the best way to be safe was to be as informed as possible. To get real information and facts; it takes a great deal of time digging and many sleepless nights. In March, I was beyond sleep deprived and losing my mind. I had been following this pandemic since January 5th, so by March I was exhausted and so sick of staring at a computer screen. I thought my eyes were gonna bleed.
For my sanity, I needed to disconnect. I think it’s good for everyone to do from time to time. I was beginning to get pretty overwhelmed at the beginning of this crisis anyway, because of “other” situations which occurred before all this Wuhan Flu drama. I’m assuming everyone recognizes the negative affects of social media platforms and spending too much time on the net. The internet is capable of depressing me unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Of course, it’s also provided me with boundless knowledge an entertainment, so you got to take the good with the bad.
It’s hard for me to share this, but recently became aware that I’ve developed a phobia to social platforms. This isn’t conducive to my chosen career or my life. This odd phobia has been taking a huge mental toll on me for the last couple years, only I hadn’t recognized this until this March.(Yes, I know how stupid this sounds) I’ve been trying to figure out how something so silly has transformed into almost paralyzing anxiety. It’s been perplexing to say the least, that I love people and consider myself a social butterfly, but dealing with “socializing” on an internet platform has turned me into a cyber introvert.(I’m not an introvert in real life) this problem has been making me profoundly intermittently depressed for some time now.
Taking time out provided me with some much needed clarity and was helpful. Things have been crazy for me for a long while, but I never took much time to really think about what I was doing and how. I was so used to running all the time that I felt like I was chasing life, not living it. I couldn’t get organized because I didn’t have time but I took time to organize then I would have time. It was a continuous cycle and much of it was related to the work I wasn’t getting done on these social platforms. I never imagined things would spiral out of control as much as they did.
Over the course of this “Stay at home order”; I wasn’t sure if I was still going to have a business by the end of this situation. I was very concerned. I literally just could not bring myself to get online in any capacity. I had no answers for anyone. How could I go online and tell people I had no idea when I could tattoo them or where? I didn’t know if I was going to have to go work somewhere else or if I would be able to stay where I’m at. I wasn’t sure when we could officially open and I still wonder. There were just so many things completely beyond my control, that I couldn’t deal with anyone or anything. Honestly folks, I couldn’t deal so I just DIDN’T. I know it sounds dramatic, but don’t even try and tell me about you’ve never had a drama moment in your life!
Maybe running away and hiding wasn’t the best way to handle my situation, but none the less,that’s what I did. I just needed to remove myself from everything and think. I’m sure everyone reading can relate. Haven’t such current events moved you to do some very serious thinking? It’s not like we experience pandemics all the time. This is new for us here in the very privileged USA.
So, I’ve been working on some positive change that’s going to be better for me, Sassmouth and most importantly all of my clients(my sassy people). I know I’ve been difficult to contact from time to time. Sometimes, I got overwhelmed and have had slow response times and missed calls. I’ve got a system to address that issue. Part of that new system is having my super assistant, Monica back in action very soon!
I’ve done several things to make contacting Sassmouth easier. I’ve fixed our phone situation(new phone and account glitch). I will be available for phone calls from 12pm - 6pm, Tuesday - Saturday until Sassmouth is legally able to operate. Text messages will be answered in 24 hours. Facebook messages will be answered Tuesday - Saturday. Emails will be checked Tuesday - Saturday. I will be contacting everyone who needs to be rescheduled so we can arrange future appointments in accordance with the law. New business hours will be announced when Sassmouth is able to physically reopen.
I will be posting an update blog once a week which will have any changes in hours, special events or ramblings of a tattooer. I make no guarantees as to the quality of the content in the Sassmouth Blog updates, but at least there’s another option for keeping informed. Also, if you would like to get updates directly, you can join our Sassmouth mailer list, which is just for my studio and my clients and not sold to corporate pigs who profit off your souls.
I’m so lucky to have the best clients and friends in my life. A little bit love and patience is needed by everyone right now, so I beg your understanding of my recent disappearance. It was necessary for a better me so, I can be better for everyone else.(and myself) Better things are on the horizon for all of us and I can’t wait to see my friends, clients, future clients and strangers of all sorts.
Thank You & Be excellent to each other.